she said, "a great life ahead"
so be inspired
FARHANA was destined to be on earth on may 6, 1988. a singaporean undergraduate in a local university (NUS) with not much intelligence but is striving hard in pursuing knowledge and wisdom, in search of Allah's blessings, mercy, love and pleasure, for the best of this world and the hereafter. so go gain, share and convey.
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11 November 2009, 22:31
today could have been the day i let aloud a mirthful laugh, some sigh of relief and just have a short but ddddddeeeeeeeppppppppppp, dddddddeeeeeeeeeeeep, ddddeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppp breather before the exams. but all that hope came crushing down in a snap when mansour had to message through the IVLE this:
are you kidding me?!?!?! i've been slogging these past weeks, burning the midnight oil, risking waking up the next morning for classes with bloated, darkened eye rings, waiting anxiously for this very day, and conveniently thinking that my malay studies presentation was the last for the whole of this semester....BUT NO. this just had to happen.
LAR1201 Last HW: سلام الى اللجميع this is a last reminder that last piece of homework عن نفسي is due this Friday before 5pm. بالتوفيق
!أنا متعب جدا
i have been feeling empty inside me since the days after recess week. there's just so much that i can do and contribute to something. there's always a limit, a boundary we definitely cannot surpass especially when it concerns us. us, humans. i remembered a nice advice a sister shared during our short usrah session back in ramadhan during our sisters' affair session. she said it's best we keep reminding ourselves everyday our niyyah for going to school, and renew them once they go astray. i love it. i love what she said but hey, it's always easier said than done. because there's just too much in my mind that says, "school, school, school" and pretty much...nothing else. up to the point that the urge to skip lectures were too strong and i succumbed to that. and then on the one morning when i took hold of the mushaf, it hit me. it frusts me so much that i have to think and do more than i want to (sometimes) for "worldly" stuff. readings bertimbun-timbun baca, abih mushaf kat tepi katil tangkap habuk je. this calls for some serious time management mayday! i'm but a goner!
and then, i came across this video. aptly and so nicely, just what i needed. alhamdulillah.
Allah
i have been feeling empty inside me since the days after recess week. there's just so much that i can do and contribute to something. there's always a limit, a boundary we definitely cannot surpass especially when it concerns us. us, humans. i remembered a nice advice a sister shared during our short usrah session back in ramadhan during our sisters' affair session. she said it's best we keep reminding ourselves everyday our niyyah for going to school, and renew them once they go astray. i love it. i love what she said but hey, it's always easier said than done. because there's just too much in my mind that says, "school, school, school" and pretty much...nothing else. up to the point that the urge to skip lectures were too strong and i succumbed to that. and then on the one morning when i took hold of the mushaf, it hit me. it frusts me so much that i have to think and do more than i want to (sometimes) for "worldly" stuff. readings bertimbun-timbun baca, abih mushaf kat tepi katil tangkap habuk je. this calls for some serious time management mayday! i'm but a goner!
and then, i came across this video. aptly and so nicely, just what i needed. alhamdulillah.
2 November 2009, 23:06
i don't know how many times i've watched this video. and each time i watch it, my tears didn't fail me. mashaAllah. moments of de-stress. ahhh...ni'mah.
we serve our jihad everywhere, anytime. the difference is, here, we erect binaries with destructive labels. over there, they unite in spirit and cause. and yet all claim to be ahlus-sunnah wal jamaah.
enough is enough, seriously.
***
while on a personal note, i'm so trying my best to live a healthy life. this morning's sermon hit me hard. i honestly think i failed. and there must be something i'm not doing right, or something good i'm not doing.
ya Allah, rahsiakanlah aib ku...
we serve our jihad everywhere, anytime. the difference is, here, we erect binaries with destructive labels. over there, they unite in spirit and cause. and yet all claim to be ahlus-sunnah wal jamaah.
enough is enough, seriously.
***
while on a personal note, i'm so trying my best to live a healthy life. this morning's sermon hit me hard. i honestly think i failed. and there must be something i'm not doing right, or something good i'm not doing.
ya Allah, rahsiakanlah aib ku...
मुझे हिंदी बहुत याद आती है!
aku yang berjiwa india, beridentitikan kearaban, berbakakan kejawaan 14 October 2009, 23:01
i got home today thinking there wasn't going to be any meals for us to gorge on, and i swear, i've been super, super hungry these days - and i mean REALLY HUNGRY. must be the stress right now. not forgetting multiple pimples popping all over my face. so before i headed home from school just now, i got myself a grab at long john silvers' although i intended to makan SUSHI yet again at ramen ten. hehehe.
and then, when i got home, this was what i saw waiting for all of us in the kitchen!
i mean, see, why shouldn't i fall in love with him more and more? he is becoming sweeter by the day! *melts* LOL.
back to the times when i was THE girl
and then, when i got home, this was what i saw waiting for all of us in the kitchen!
i mean, see, why shouldn't i fall in love with him more and more? he is becoming sweeter by the day! *melts* LOL.
back to the times when i was THE girl
10 October 2009, 01:14
i suddenly remembered why i was really and still am quite in love with and passionate about geography.
1 October 2009, 00:14
watching the video above brought tears to my eyes. it reminded me of the turbulence my family went through years ago. how it wrecked my heart and how i truly lost my ability to trust. no, alhamdulillah and insyaAllah, not anymore. albeit not all the puss have dried up and not all wounds have healed, i somehow have found closure to all that drama. looking forward to what kakak calls, a great life ahead. :)
ameen.
19 September 2009, 22:13
WAIT?!
Ramadhan's over? so time's like so fast i didn't even have the luxury to stop and smell the roses. really, school's been very taxing i keep on falling asleep unknowingly in lectures and yet still trying my hardest to sit up straight in my chair. hah! and almost always being at the front rows for lectures, i don't suppose i was excellent at my attempts pretending to listen. how can one bobbing head amongst millions in the theatre not be obvious right? by bobbing i mean, terhuyung-hayang dalam kelentokan tatkala begitu nyenyak dibuai mimpi. know what i mean?
and so, my dad made a snide remark (jokingly) during iftar,"Nasib baik ade raye ah. Kalau tak, hmph. Sepanjang tahun pon korang tak kemas rumah." cute kan ayahanda ku? semakin senja umurnya, semakin aku melihat ke-handsome-an dan kelucuannya. of course, by that very saying, we know very well what the behind-the-scenes in Malay/Muslim homes are like come Eid Ul-Fitri. more often than not, we'd get very excited that we'll no longer have to fast etcetera. there's absolutely nothing wrong with being excited for the coming of Syawal, even more so for those who have willingly, tirelessly and endlessly leveraged on the blessings of Ramadhan Kareem. i think it is only natural and deserving. mabruk!
but there definitely exists a concoction of emotions with respect to the coming of Syawal and the end of Ramadhan. i cannot really, sincerely explain what's the feeling like in the truest of sense. i wasn't THAT excited for Hari Raya, yet contented at the same time, for one, i am proud of myself for doing things that were beyond my expectations, things that i didn't know i am capable of doing (and insyaAllah, this continues). despite so, as i heard the Takbir over the radio, my heart just crushed. i literally could feel my heart squeezed as though it was caught between thongs tau. i regret that i didn't do somethings that perhaps i should have and did somethings that i shouldn't have but i did during Ramadhan (which of course, is useless, now that Ramadhan is over). it is so scary how sometimes our iman fluctuates. ya Allah, it is so so hard to be a righteous person, i'd have to admit.
but i'm keeping headstrong in trying to better myself as a muslimah. and certainly hope that i won't be left on my own to go astray.
Muhammad ibn Ziyad said,"I was with Abu Umamah al-Bahili, and others of the companions of the Prophet s.a.w. They used to say to each other-when they return from Eid-"Taqabbala Allahu minna wa minkum (May Allah accept from us and from you)." And Ahmad said,"The isnad from Abu Umamah is isnad jayyid."
Eidulfitri Mubarak
Ramadhan's over? so time's like so fast i didn't even have the luxury to stop and smell the roses. really, school's been very taxing i keep on falling asleep unknowingly in lectures and yet still trying my hardest to sit up straight in my chair. hah! and almost always being at the front rows for lectures, i don't suppose i was excellent at my attempts pretending to listen. how can one bobbing head amongst millions in the theatre not be obvious right? by bobbing i mean, terhuyung-hayang dalam kelentokan tatkala begitu nyenyak dibuai mimpi. know what i mean?
and so, my dad made a snide remark (jokingly) during iftar,"Nasib baik ade raye ah. Kalau tak, hmph. Sepanjang tahun pon korang tak kemas rumah." cute kan ayahanda ku? semakin senja umurnya, semakin aku melihat ke-handsome-an dan kelucuannya. of course, by that very saying, we know very well what the behind-the-scenes in Malay/Muslim homes are like come Eid Ul-Fitri. more often than not, we'd get very excited that we'll no longer have to fast etcetera. there's absolutely nothing wrong with being excited for the coming of Syawal, even more so for those who have willingly, tirelessly and endlessly leveraged on the blessings of Ramadhan Kareem. i think it is only natural and deserving. mabruk!
but there definitely exists a concoction of emotions with respect to the coming of Syawal and the end of Ramadhan. i cannot really, sincerely explain what's the feeling like in the truest of sense. i wasn't THAT excited for Hari Raya, yet contented at the same time, for one, i am proud of myself for doing things that were beyond my expectations, things that i didn't know i am capable of doing (and insyaAllah, this continues). despite so, as i heard the Takbir over the radio, my heart just crushed. i literally could feel my heart squeezed as though it was caught between thongs tau. i regret that i didn't do somethings that perhaps i should have and did somethings that i shouldn't have but i did during Ramadhan (which of course, is useless, now that Ramadhan is over). it is so scary how sometimes our iman fluctuates. ya Allah, it is so so hard to be a righteous person, i'd have to admit.
but i'm keeping headstrong in trying to better myself as a muslimah. and certainly hope that i won't be left on my own to go astray.
"My Own Affair"
Could it be the manner in which I speak?
Do you disapprove of the clothes I wear?
Is it the fact that you cannot see my hair?
Maybe it’s because you believe I’m weak
Well I for one find fault in your critique
My mode of dress should be my own affair
As natural to me as bowing down in prayer
Is my choice not to flaunt my own physique
No man made law should attempt to impede
My desire to do right by my own belief
Don’t imprison me within your own ideal
All the while crying out “she must be freed”
Because what you intend will bring grief
To me and others who’d share in the ordeal
Do you disapprove of the clothes I wear?
Is it the fact that you cannot see my hair?
Maybe it’s because you believe I’m weak
Well I for one find fault in your critique
My mode of dress should be my own affair
As natural to me as bowing down in prayer
Is my choice not to flaunt my own physique
No man made law should attempt to impede
My desire to do right by my own belief
Don’t imprison me within your own ideal
All the while crying out “she must be freed”
Because what you intend will bring grief
To me and others who’d share in the ordeal
naeima, http://muslimgirl.net
Muhammad ibn Ziyad said,"I was with Abu Umamah al-Bahili, and others of the companions of the Prophet s.a.w. They used to say to each other-when they return from Eid-"Taqabbala Allahu minna wa minkum (May Allah accept from us and from you)." And Ahmad said,"The isnad from Abu Umamah is isnad jayyid."
Eidulfitri Mubarak
23 August 2009, 18:13
ما معنى رمضان؟
Ramadhan is here again, alhamdulillah. we should be thankful that we're still here today to welcome this holy month. and i've witnessed endless articulations of excitement, contentment and so forth from many netizens about the celebrating of Ramadhan! alhamdulillah ya Allah, now that we're seeing signs of proliferating inclination towards Ramadhan instead of Syawal! but, really, what is the meaning of Ramadhan? think. think.
does it merely mean the abstinence from food and drink, sins and such? or does it merely mean the time for rituals, worshipping, reciting the Quran, doing tarawih prayers all night long? is it just about doing good for the community? what about patience and will power? what about integrity? what about at-taqwa, relationships with our fellow brothers and sisters (our ukhuwwah), relationship with our usrah, relationship with Allah? think. think.
respecting Ramadhan is one thing, knowing how to respect Ramadhan is another. ultimaltely, the objectives of Ramadhan is so that we may take heed from the lessons learnt throughout the whole month and carry them forward to the next month, and to the next, and so on. that, what is sowed and henceforth, reaped, would be accumulative. i've noticed some doings in our community which whilst is commendable on one hand, is also saddening on the other. this is with regards to how we show respect for Ramadhan, and ultimately towards the deen, Rasulullah s.a.w and Almighty Allah. myself included, when for a fact we know something is haram in the eyes of Islamic Law, we quit doing it during Ramadhan, yes? but what about pre and post Ramadhan? i don't mean to be boorish but, if i may just quote a commonly heard saying,"i met A today! it's the last time we'll meet before Ramadhan. we made a pact not to meet up for the next one month as a sign of respect" or even more frighteningly,"aww...A so and so me since it was after breakfast."
of course, whatever i've noticed, would indisputably serve as reminders for my ignorant self. if we do good in this month, and stop just as soon as Syawal comes, would that mean we have respected Ramadhan as we should have? or is respecting Ramadhan just an act for that month itself? if i were to respect my teacher, does it mean only throughout his or her lesson? do we forget what he or she has taught us outside of class?
let's think, pin point our shortcomings, learn, and work on the betterment of our iman. insyaAllah.
does it merely mean the abstinence from food and drink, sins and such? or does it merely mean the time for rituals, worshipping, reciting the Quran, doing tarawih prayers all night long? is it just about doing good for the community? what about patience and will power? what about integrity? what about at-taqwa, relationships with our fellow brothers and sisters (our ukhuwwah), relationship with our usrah, relationship with Allah? think. think.
respecting Ramadhan is one thing, knowing how to respect Ramadhan is another. ultimaltely, the objectives of Ramadhan is so that we may take heed from the lessons learnt throughout the whole month and carry them forward to the next month, and to the next, and so on. that, what is sowed and henceforth, reaped, would be accumulative. i've noticed some doings in our community which whilst is commendable on one hand, is also saddening on the other. this is with regards to how we show respect for Ramadhan, and ultimately towards the deen, Rasulullah s.a.w and Almighty Allah. myself included, when for a fact we know something is haram in the eyes of Islamic Law, we quit doing it during Ramadhan, yes? but what about pre and post Ramadhan? i don't mean to be boorish but, if i may just quote a commonly heard saying,"i met A today! it's the last time we'll meet before Ramadhan. we made a pact not to meet up for the next one month as a sign of respect" or even more frighteningly,"aww...A so and so me since it was after breakfast."
of course, whatever i've noticed, would indisputably serve as reminders for my ignorant self. if we do good in this month, and stop just as soon as Syawal comes, would that mean we have respected Ramadhan as we should have? or is respecting Ramadhan just an act for that month itself? if i were to respect my teacher, does it mean only throughout his or her lesson? do we forget what he or she has taught us outside of class?
let's think, pin point our shortcomings, learn, and work on the betterment of our iman. insyaAllah.
Ramadhan Kareem!